Clyde, I miss you so so much.

Clyde, my first ferret, my first LOVE.Oh my god I miss him. He was born on May 7, 2004 and passed from cancer on April 18, 2011.

I have never ever had such a relationship with an animal. I have special connections with all my animals but not like this one. This little guy was amazing. He was deaf. He was kind, loving, gentle, protective and had a love for me and only me I cannot put into words. He would follow me around the house through my busy day just waiting patiently for me to stop for just a second (which happened several times over) for me to pick him up to love him. kiss him and say hi to him. He would wait patiently for me to finish taking a shower on the bath mat. If I slept on the other side of bed he knew it. He would always find me; and I would always find him in something of mine snuggled up sleeping peacefully. I know this little guy could not have had a better home, loving home or life with another only because he was meant to be with me. I remember the how the cold air would excite him and he would dook around the house. I remember how he would chase my cat down the hall and put my 100 lb black lab in the corner. He would fall asleep while I was giving him a bath. He would search high and low for his little girl before he would go to bed. He was so gentle, loving, funny and yet showed his alpha male personality when need be. He would scoot my socks or hair ties in the tube to hide them. He would bite my ankle when I wasnt paying attention to him or crawl up the legs of my pajamas. We would go out in the front or back yard to play and run in the grass, follow me to the mailbox or down the road without a leash or collar and without any training. With me is where he wanted to be.

My heart is broken and empty. I have only cried one other time as hard as I did when I had to put him to rest; and that is when I lost my father. I had to be selfless and do what he needed me to. I did not want to let him go. But his quality of life had changed so much in a two week period; that I could not watch him suffer. So I did what was best for him and the hardest thing for me. In the end he had his bed on the floor of our room that I put him in after he fell asleep beside me. I would hear him get up and I would carry him to the food bowl and his litter box; and carry him back to bed with me. Alot of sleepless nights in the end; but would not have had it any other way.

I love you Clyde and everday a 1000x a day I miss and think of you. I have your shrine built; and the light on for you every night. I look at your face and smile with memories of sweetness and your bed is still there. Your fuzzbutt friends miss you too. I cant wait until the day we meet again at the Rainbow Bridge. I cannot wait to see your face again, kiss you and pet you in all your favorite places like on your neck, your tummy, rub your feetsies and the back of your legs. We will be able to share an plain m&m on occasion again. Thank you so much for chosing me. Thank you so much for years of love and happiness. Thank you so much for loving me the way you did. You are the only one who was mine and only mine. I MISS YOU LIKE THERE IS NO TOMORROW AND LOVE YOU WITH EVERY OUNCE OF MY BEING!! In the meantime, I hold you in my heart until we meet again.

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Jan 06, 2013
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im so sorry NEW
by: Anonymous

Im really sorry, this story touched my heart but I'm happy your fuzzy received as much love as he did. He was a fortunate ferret. :) DIP Clyde.

Jul 01, 2011
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Ben
by: cliff

im sat here n ben is lay on the bed he is dying, we rescue him after a cat got him n nursed him back to health, we took him to a ferret fair n were told he was a she we dident know n they told us to take him to a vet,we did n she ad a inplant n 10 days later our beloved if lay on my bed dying,all i can say is thankyou ben for the fun n laughter u have given us n we can never repay you
always be ben to us love u so much
cliff n louisa

May 04, 2011
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R.I.P. clyde
by: narelle

please accept my heartfelt sorrow for the loss of your little clyde he will be sadly missed by u but our furry friends stay close to us even when they have passed over, if u see a flinch of something in the corner of your eye it will be him believe me cheers narelle

May 01, 2011
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I'm so sorry for your loss.
by: Anonymous

First let me say how sorry I am for your loss. I fully understand how you feel. I have lost six of my ferret children and still cry almost everyday. I lost three in the last 8 or 9 months. My little Mojo first, he was very precious and died from renal failure, my little mataya who suddenly died from her lungs being full of fluid, and my little Binx three months ago who died on the surgery table due to a mistake the vet made. When I think of them I cry and wish they were still with me. I have 7 more and know it will be just as hard when they go. I have made the decision after they have left me I will have no more. My heart has been broken to many times and don't think I can do it anymore. I hope your little clyde is at the rainbow bridge with my babies having a good time.

May 01, 2011
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Big part of our lives
by: Tina

I have lost my babies and each one has broken my heart. This little guy sounds so special with a huge personality and can imagine how much he is missed. It amazes me how such little creatures bring so much to out lives and leave such big holes when they leave. I am so very sorry for your loss.

May 01, 2011
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sorry to hear
by: Robin

I am the owner of two little ferrets and I can feel the loss you have suffered. They are our babies and we, as moms, love our little ones. Your pictures show how adorable Clyde is...his sweetness shines through... know that you are not alone at this time. I have a feeling Clyde is staying close to you, in whatever way he can.

Take Care of yourself,
Robin

May 01, 2011
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by: Anonymous

OMG... I'm crying as I read this... I don't have any words to console you because I still don't know how hard it must be to lose one of my fuzzies, and I don't even want to start imagining it, because that right there is love in its purest form. I'm sorry you lost him but I'm also proud you had the privilege of loving so deeply in your life and having someone love you as much as he did. :)

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