Clyde, I miss you so so much.
Clyde, my first ferret, my first LOVE.Oh my god I miss him. He was born on May 7, 2004 and passed from cancer on April 18, 2011.
I have never ever had such a relationship with an animal. I have special connections with all my animals but not like this one. This little guy was amazing. He was deaf. He was kind, loving, gentle, protective and had a love for me and only me I cannot put into words. He would follow me around the house through my busy day just waiting patiently for me to stop for just a second (which happened several times over) for me to pick him up to love him. kiss him and say hi to him. He would wait patiently for me to finish taking a shower on the bath mat. If I slept on the other side of bed he knew it. He would always find me; and I would always find him in something of mine snuggled up sleeping peacefully. I know this little guy could not have had a better home, loving home or life with another only because he was meant to be with me. I remember the how the cold air would excite him and he would dook around the house. I remember how he would chase my cat down the hall and put my 100 lb black lab in the corner. He would fall asleep while I was giving him a bath. He would search high and low for his little girl before he would go to bed. He was so gentle, loving, funny and yet showed his alpha male personality when need be. He would scoot my socks or hair ties in the tube to hide them. He would bite my ankle when I wasnt paying attention to him or crawl up the legs of my pajamas. We would go out in the front or back yard to play and run in the grass, follow me to the mailbox or down the road without a leash or collar and without any training. With me is where he wanted to be.
My heart is broken and empty. I have only cried one other time as hard as I did when I had to put him to rest; and that is when I lost my father. I had to be selfless and do what he needed me to. I did not want to let him go. But his quality of life had changed so much in a two week period; that I could not watch him suffer. So I did what was best for him and the hardest thing for me. In the end he had his bed on the floor of our room that I put him in after he fell asleep beside me. I would hear him get up and I would carry him to the food bowl and his litter box; and carry him back to bed with me. Alot of sleepless nights in the end; but would not have had it any other way.
I love you Clyde and everday a 1000x a day I miss and think of you. I have your shrine built; and the light on for you every night. I look at your face and smile with memories of sweetness and your bed is still there. Your fuzzbutt friends miss you too. I cant wait until the day we meet again at the Rainbow Bridge. I cannot wait to see your face again, kiss you and pet you in all your favorite places like on your neck, your tummy, rub your feetsies and the back of your legs. We will be able to share an plain m&m on occasion again. Thank you so much for chosing me. Thank you so much for years of love and happiness. Thank you so much for loving me the way you did. You are the only one who was mine and only mine. I MISS YOU LIKE THERE IS NO TOMORROW AND LOVE YOU WITH EVERY OUNCE OF MY BEING!! In the meantime, I hold you in my heart until we meet again.